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Dearly Beloved.

Soundtrack to my life! <3

09.09.11 ♥ 1
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Zoom Do you know what it took to get to this? Alhamdoulilah for every hardship and tears.  I love you Raheeli :) 

Do you know what it took to get to this? Alhamdoulilah for every hardship and tears. 

I love you Raheeli :) 

09.07.11 ♥ 2
“ Honestly affaf, I know we have had our downfalls at times but I thought we were always good friends and I thought that evry time we did hang out we always picked up where we stopped, but looks like I was very wrong about my assumption…..
…..I am disappointed though as I expected more out of you. But now I know.
…..Last time I heard from you, was sometime in august but that’s because you needed the dabke’s phone number and you threw in “congrats” to my sister in that text as well (a month after it was announced).
…..We are all busy in our lives, not just u..lol….
……Again, I am telling you this just so I dont hold it in my heart for you, and so that next time we see each other at a mutual friends event, it wont be awkward as I will give you your salam.

— Beware. I am a dear BAD FRIEND! 

09.05.11 ♥ 0
“ After the fard (obligatory) acts, there is nothing Allah loves more from us than serving our mothers. Let’s make our mothers happy today if they are alive, and let’s make dua for them if they aren’t.

— Quran Weekly (via umerrr)

08.28.11 ♥ 31
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Leilatul Qadr

SO I went outside to feel the “breeze” and witness the signs of laylatul qadr….nope. still muggy. but so peaceful. I witnessed birds dancing in circles (or were they butterflies) emitting this white light like shadow…it was wonderful. as the sky was changing colors.

I hope this was a leilatul Qadr. Because i would hate it if it already happened couple of nights ago and slept through it :(

oki. Fajr time.  

08.27.11 ♥ 0
“ ‎”If a wound hath touched you, be sure a similar wound hath touched the others. such days (of varying fortunes) We give to mena nd men by turns: that Allah may know those that believe, and that He may take to Himself from your ranks martyr-witnesses (to Truth), and Allah loveth not those that do wrong

— Al-Quran 3:140

08.20.11 ♥ 0
Last Chance: 10 nights!

starting now. 

08.20.11 ♥ 0
Tests.

Sigh. 

this knot in my throat keeps tightening. Blood pressure rising. Tears forming, wishing for them to flow. Unexpected circumstances made these thoughts tumbling, about a person that deserves not. 

How are we the best, roaming in this world thinking we deserve the best because we are the best. I’m afraid we are not, nor we wish to be. Our fragile life was given to us with tears in our eyes, crying, and we will roam in this world with tears in our eyes, crying, and we leave this world with tears in our eyes, crying, so that our lord wipes away these tears with everlasting smile and happiness. 

If your smile ever stands still for a long period of time, know that you have not tried your best. Alllah Tests whom he loves. Allah tests us in many different ways, just to remind us that this world is but a blink of an eye, lest we fall in love with this dunya and forget about the Akhira. 

for some, the parents and their children, and for others, their wealth and their health, and for the rest, their hearts and their desires. how can i speak of such pretending i’m in the middle of such test, for I have not seen yet what others have. Some their loved ones suffering, some had their wealth disappear from mountain to a molehill, some their limb got detached, and some their eyes might never see their loved ones again. and here I am typing with all my 10 fingers, with both of my eyes, my heart beating regularly and my lungs emptied to take another breath, then why does my throat knot as such?

my weakness is my heart. when i love, I love deeply wholeheartedly. my mother, my sisters, my grandparents, my love…I shall do anything and everything for them. My Lord, though, reigns above them all, but I wish even more so. I wish I can be patient while i see any of them suffer. I wish. I wish that I can trust my Lord more so that i leave any of them in His hands. i wish. but I try, god knows I try. 

My Lord, Please protect my loved ones, and increase in our patience, and increase our faith, and give us what we desire that is good for us, and keep the bad from us. Unite us in this dunya, and reunite us in the akhira fi Janati Al-Fardaws. I beg you, in this 10th day of Ramadan, to heal the sick, to heal our hearts, to wipe our tears, to make us stronger, to bless us with your blessings, and keep away the shur. I beg you to fasten our deen and iman in our hearts, and keep us in the Siratul-Mustaqeem. Ya Rub, you are my one and only Lord, you can do anything, make us acknowledge our tests and make us see their fruits that they blossom. Alhamdoulillah, ameen, thumma ameen 

08.11.11 ♥ 5

I don’t wanna be adored
Don’t wanna be first in line
Or make myself heard
I’d like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved
No, don’t wanna be the only one you know
I wanna be the place you call home
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don’t want to know
I give much more
Than I’d ever ask for
Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
Warm me up again
Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don’t want to know
You take much more
Than I’d ever ask for
Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way
To lay yourself down
And make it so, but you don’t want to know
You take much more
Than I’d ever ask for

12.19.10 ♥ 0
Panic Attack
  • “terror, a sense that something unimaginably horrible is about to occur and one is powerless to prevent it;



  • a need to escape;



  • nervousness about the possibility of losing control and doing something embarrassing”
    • 11.15.10 ♥ 0